Enchantingly Exquisite

2011-12-18T23:19:00.003+08:00

3 months has passed.Just 3 months,I've already suffered enough from work.The long hour shift,the colleague and the work itself.Remind me again,why did I choose this company instead of others?0.o Tell me again,how can I be happy with work?Am I losing myself?I tried,tried hard enough to be positive but sometimes it's just too hard to be one.It makes me wonder,how do people REALLY survive in work.Do they really feel happy with their work?or is it just how people have to survive for their everyday lives?

Honestly,I don't know what I want in life anymore.Even still,it helps me think to realize of what's important I want it to make in my life.Family or career?Or is it possible to have both?People say money is not everything,but realistically you can't survive without money.Family?Well,you still need your family for support too. One of the many things I hate of being adult is to make a decision. :/

Everyday I pray to Allah to make my life easier,coz I don't know whether I'm strong enough to overcome this. I still have 2 months+ to go and it feels like 2000 yrs! I just can't wait to be over. Am I complaining too much?Sometimes I just feel that I'm just too weak.T.T

2011-10-02T15:04:00.002+08:00

How time flies~ September is leaving us and now here come October!

I'm left with less than 24 hours before my attachment start. How do I feel about it? THANK GOODNESS holiday is oooooovveeeeerrrr~ Not that I don't appreciate holiday, my holidays is kinda empty. I didn't have part time job and I only spent most of the day at home and randomly going out with friends. See, it's pretty much boring when you don't have moolah during holiday. -.- At least, I will earn some moolah during attachment and not get bored right? I don't know about my friends, but I really can't wait for attachment to start. I don't want to get bored anymore~ Plus, it is more meaningful to go out now than randomly figuring out places that don't cost a BOMB for us student to hang out-though there isn't much places like that here in Singapore.-.-'
I know it is not going to be easy and I'm still scared about the new workplace environment and the people there, but hopefully, there won't be much trouble.

October- It's gonna to be one hell of a ride!

2011-09-19T01:03:00.002+08:00

Here I thought, when school ends you won't have to face a problem anymore. Who knows the one who you're close with is the one who starts it? I just don't get it. After all this time, I don't see any problem with it. They seem happy,everyone did. Or did I miss something here? I know I tend to be slow when seeing things or a situation. But, aren't they mature/adult enough to not let things get over their head and mature enough to handle it. I am seriously dissapointed.

2011-09-19T01:00:00.002+08:00

Today I just feel sooo great~ ^^ Thanks to my friend, she got free tix and I get to go to Rania Fanmeet and I got to hug T-AE~~ ^^

2011-09-12T22:41:00.003+08:00

Hello Hello~

School is finally over.So now I'm currently waiting for attachment in October and after 5 mths and I'm finally be FREEEEEEE~ How time flies..Done with all the project and the stress that comes with it. Honestly,how I may look like I never appreciate this school,I can sincerely say I'm going to miss it. Especially all the friends that I made and all the experience that I had. There so many things inside my mind I would like to express this into words but the problem with me is that I have a hard time expressing myself. -.-'

2011-04-23T10:10:00.003+08:00

Some circumstances we just cant avoid it. It happens and that's it. No matter how much you complain and feel unhappy about it, it still won't go away. I still don't know whether I'm doing the right thing or it's all just a mistake. But it's already too late now and I feel a burden when I don't have much support for this.I don't know if I can handle this much stress going on.Either way,I still have to work it out.

2011-04-18T22:30:00.003+08:00

The first impression I had for ITE student was that they look soo relaxing and soo slack.Everyday they come school with nothing but a small bag with them or had the i win a lottery face on them.But really,who knows when its my turn,it is sooo stressful you feel like jumping of the cliff.OR maybe my course is excluded in this term. It's been the 2nd week of school,n here I am again,feeling so miserable that I'm going to get my gastric back soon.This latest event project is KILLING ME! What's with the new grouping and all this friends problem.It's tiring us to DEATH! n its nt even starting yet. ARGH!!! I HAVE to work this things out even it means losing my brain!

2011-03-31T10:49:00.003+08:00

Looking at the result right now,I don't know whether I should cry or thinking well~ isn't it no surprise? In the first place, I know myself that I'm no cut for study no matter how hard I try.People may say 'oh,you're not trying hard enough' but what people don't know is that I already tried.Even way before I get this far, and again all I get is disappointment. So in the end,why bother?

Every time I look back, I keep on thinking how in the hell did I get this far?Am I really that lucky?If people says that its all about hard work,I'm sure they are wrong.I guess I'm a mix of hard work and lucky and it is more lucky that I used and now my lucky pot is getting empty soon.

Looking at my friends,even without studies they are still happy with work,family and kids.Looking back at me,why am I not like them?they are even better than me! Why am I still stuck here when almost of them already achieve their goal,well,most of it.

Life is really unfair!

What really is my goal in life?Feels like as more day passes,I lose some sense of my goal and I don't really know what to do anymore.

2011-03-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

Hello hello~~

Wow~ it's been like half a year since I last posted and now it's already the year 2011. HAHA..How time flies~ All this while, it's been like a roller coaster ride for me. I have my UPS and DOWNS and still I'm alive and kicking and not to mention breathing~ *roll eyes

So what's happening now in my life? I'm currently on school break..doing pretty much nothing..just lazying around and had a lil bit of shopping, eating good foods and doing some of my part-time hobby which is fan-gurling~ (~.^) YES~! I had finally went to SS3..^^ I'm sooo happy I can jump over the moon~~! OK,let's not get overboard..So yea~one of my wishlist has finally come true..:)

But one thing still hasn't change, I am still single. T.T I'm turning 22 soon and i still have NONE! Ok,how depressing is that..-.- Every time i tell myself that it will come one day,it's been like FOREVER~~ sigh~ oh well,nothing much I can do though~ -.-

2010-10-17T22:42:00.003+08:00

Hello Hello~~

I'm still in high mood for JYJ. I can''t really stop listening to their song since I first start listening to it! And when I see them performing live-DAEBAK!! I feel like crying~~ T.T I remember how I used to watch them perform in youtube during their mirotic time.. AND I keep on repeating it over n over again! Jaejoong ah~~! *shy And I can't believe I can finally watch them perform LIVE,just right infront of me! It's like a dream come true~ T.T Though I still wish they could perform all 5 on one stage.Oh well, since jaejoong is my bias..I'm already satisfied! ^^

And it's all thanks to my dear friend,Liyen for getting a free tix! I LOVE YOU!!! :p

Junsu, I love your sexy dance!

Yoochun, I love ur sexy voice!

Jaejoong, I love your hotness!!

Come back to Singapore soon~!

2010-10-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

It's only been two days of school and I can already feel like a month!

New term= new subject

New Subject= More Project

Do I have to remind myself?It's only been 2 days and here goes the first project coming to us..-.-

And here goes brainstorming,more research to be done n more arguments all over again..@.@

It's a life of a student,after all~

2010-09-29T23:09:00.003+08:00

Hi again,

Today I went to G.na Fansigning session @ Bugis. It was quite an experience, as it's my first time seeing her LIVE and seeing her singing LIVE was daeeeebak! She's pretty too.. ^^ There was many fanboy all over! n some of them is not bad looking..quite pretty I'd say..hehe..But most awesomess thing was dat, I saw my sec school fren!! We chat for a lil while n exchange no. ^^

2010-09-28T22:03:00.006+08:00

Hello everyone~~

I finally change my blogskin.YAY!! With a BIIIIIG help from my fren of course. Who could have thought I survive this blog editing?0.O It's a jungle MADDness trying to figure out which is which..Honestly, I don't have much a patient trying to figure out one thing to another. Heck,I'm not even good with computers! As you can see..or perhaps you've notice.It's not even complete yet. -.- Yea,I'm still stuck with putting links to YOU guys blog and adding some comment box where I can read ur comment. And not forgetting trying to figure out how to put music.@.@ It's too much for me to absorb what did my fren teach me HOW..So I'm going to give it a rest until tomorrow..ok.perhaps...

2010-08-29T02:19:00.004+08:00

Every person have their moments.Sometimes they are happy, they feel like flying over the moon and at times they have their sad moments. Feeling like everyone is condemning them,turning their back on you. And I'm no exception too.

My life is like a roller coster ride where I dont know if I survive this ride or am I going to fall halfway.I try to be strong but sometimes it is just too hard for me and no matter how much I wanted to hide it, I cant.

And what's more worst is when I have no motivation at all.Sometimes I feel like giving it up halfway.But still,I try to hold on..I know if I give it up halfway,I'm going to regret it.Sometimes I'm too confuse that I don't know what's wrong and what's right anymore.

Maybe what I really need right now is a break..

I'm just tooo tired~~

2010-08-16T12:13:00.010+08:00

Venue: Marina Bay Sand Hotel

Tower 1

Me n Cindi

When people are buzy watching the basketball tournament..

We are buzy taking picture...

N more pic...
The bathroom is as BIG as my room!

The bathtub that can accomodate 2 ppl in it..

more picture...

This bathroom contain 2 SINK!!!

n finally,the view from the room

Didn't manage to go to the sky park as we came in the afternoon and my breaking fast is nearing so yea...there will be next time.. ^^

2010-06-23T13:01:00.003+08:00

It's already been 3 straight days I keep going out.It was tiring,sweaty n whole LOT more.But one thing I have to say,it is all WORTH it! WHY? coz I'm enjoying myself VERY VERY MUCH seeing one of my favourite idol U-KISS!! They're just adorable! n the most friendliest n the most awesomest idol I have ever encounter thus dis far.

The meet n greet session was great! They really have the best fan service ever! n kevin is oh soo nice,n soohyun too!! Eli is really good looking,Alex is cool~~ I love when he say in singlish.. ^^ kiseop is WOW! I don't know that he was THAT gd looking too. ^^ Kibum is very charismatic.At times I see hyungjoon in him.They both really look the same. Dongho,he's cute n looks like he's in his own world when doing the fansigning. All of them are really great!

And for the showcase on the next day,I start queuing frm 7 am and I'm the 72 person queuing.But still we're standing in the middle,not too close n yet not too far either.I must say I've been really lucky that whenever I went for a concert,I'm always in the middle. :) And what did I do while waiting for 12 HOURS before the showcase to start??Well, we rot there n do abit of window shopping at Vivo.

But the most amazing thing happen was that U-KISS really caught us off-guard! Me and my friend were sitting outside the bar,eating and drinking to keep our energy level high and we randomly start to talk abt U-kiss when we saw a minibus pass by us.And we said "Whoah~imagine THAT'S their transport" and a few mins later..WE SAW THEM INSIDE!! and I quickly rush to their minibus and wave to Kevin.and he did lift the curtain n wave back at us! omg! he's like inches away from me!! ^^ But I couldn't see alex coz he nvr lift the curtain as he sat in front of kevin.N so I walk at the back n saw soohyun~~ damn he's realli nice..aww~~love his smile.. ^^

And for the 3rd day,I dunno why even though I feel really tired,I still went for their departure at the airport.Ok,mayb bcoz I'm affected by their niceness.=.= So yea,when they start coming in,all the people start screaming n running to them.So did I run too??Nop,me and Sam went up the escalator to have a gd view of them.And I can really see EVERYTHING!! OMG! the people was like screaming n pushing them.I pity them..T.T I dont mind if they want to get near them but just DONT TOUCH OR PULL THEM! coz that's RUDE! But even so,they can really SMILE n what touched me the most was when one of the fan fell n suddenly people were stuck there,n U-kiss cannt move.And right from the top,I saw soohyun trying to pull her up n I got to know that it was my fren n her fren dat fell down. kibum grab my friend's arm when she fall..T.T THEY'RE SOO NICE..even though they dont have to do dat..T.T Alex should have just walk in to the check-in but yet he still walk back n look concern.Oh my~~

And later that night,alex tweet that they're nt angry n nt affected by it.Aww~~ N I hope they're doing fine n nt hurt. :)

2010-06-02T23:30:00.007+08:00

Done with Business Environment test today and 1 more paper to go! I can't wait for june holiday, and it's going to be really pack.Really can't believe this half of june I'll keep going out.

11th - 18th of june,will be going Kl

20th - 21th will be u-kiss showcase

22nd - Training for 8 hrs at Marina Bay Sand

23rd- Working at Marina Bay Sand for the grand opening frm 2pm-12 midnite

24th - 25th will be having a sleepover with my friends at my house

I don't really know how am I going to survive this,but hopefully I'm physically n mentally prepeared for it.And not to mention I have other plan listed starting in July.ARGH! I'm gonna pray hard that it's going to be smooth as plan.I can't afford to get sick again. Ganbare!

2010-05-23T22:36:00.003+08:00

Higher Nitec: MOOOOOOOOOORE STREEEEEEEESSSSFUL!!

Now I'm stuck with project n MORE project! And what's more challenging is I'm SICK! Now,THAT'S challenging. I don't know why but this days,somehow I've been more moody than usual.PMS?It's already over,but I don'know why I still moody now.And lately,my anti-body is NOT good! What's wrong with me????????? I hardly get sick,and I cant afford to get sick now.Not when the project dateline is nearing.ARGH!!

Tatsukete~~! I'm dyiiiinngg~~ T.T

2010-04-24T11:27:00.004+08:00

Life is Unfair.Even if we gain something,we will lose another.And that is the reality of LIFE.No matter how much we want it both and try to save it.It's not going to happen.In the end, you're the one who suffer.The question is, Is it worth fighting for?

2010-03-21T01:58:00.003+08:00

It's nearly the end of March and I start to get nervous about the result. Will I get into the course I really want or should I just skip everything and start working for real, and just pick any available job out there.OR should I be theusualstubbornme to still keep on hanging with the dreams I have and to keep on fighting with no guarantee of what the future has for me.I know I should have a back up plan from now,but I really don't know.Thinking too much of this really give me headache,and I guess I should decide later when the result is out.And for now,I'm just going to enjoy life as it is.Carefree much??Hmm~~

2010-03-07T22:36:00.003+08:00

It's scay how people can change so easily. Is it my fault?or maybe things are different now. I hate it that I feel helpless and let this things goes on without a full stop. Makes me wonder again,how long will this going to take? Are we going to let it go just like that? I know we are both busy with our own thing and am I to blame for being insensitive? I really wish that we can go back to as things are. But I guess,being stubborn you are and being too sensitive,we're not going to make up anytime soon. Only GOD knows,I've tried..

2010-02-18T20:51:00.003+08:00

Hello People! Sorry for not posting and updating as soon as I got back from Terengganu.The thing is,I'm just too tired and up till now I'm still feeling tired. =.= I got back home late night on monday and even though there's no work on the next day.I still am feeling exhausted and feel like dying.My whole body is aching and I feel dizzy.Feels like I'm going to get sick but as you well known,the only thing that I always got sick is because of gastric pain.I hardly got any fever and even though I think I got one of those symptoms. =.=

Ok,so how was my experience on working as an assistant last week?It was EXHAUSTING and TIRING for me.Why?Coz handling those auntie2 is not as easy as you think it is.I need to run here and there.Keep everyone in check.Don't let them wander too far and always remind them to be always on time.Talk to them,entertain them.Solve their problem if their toilet flush is not working,the door stuck which they can't open it,the light suddenly went out.And seriously,all this thing HAPPENED to me and I need to handle it ALONE.And so with my thick-face(I dont usually do this kind of stuff,coz everytime any problem came up.All I need to do is scream and call my dad.)I ran back to the hotel lobby and ask for help.And thank goodness everything's fine.

I don't do much shopping.All I ever did buy is for my mum.Some cloth and some crackers.With all those running here and there,I don't feel like shopping at all and so I just bought only the stuff that my mum asked me to.And everytime of the day,I always soak myself with warm water in a big tub for half an hour to relax myself.And what upset me most is that,I can't go for spa coz it's always fully book.What do you expect anyway,it's a peak season..haiz..

It was HELLISH and UNPREDICTABLE.Few times I feel like breaking down,thinking its just too hard for me to handle for a first timer.And now looking back,I can't believe I'm such a strong person,to have been survive for 3 days.^^

2010-02-11T00:03:00.003+08:00

Two more days and I'll be leaving to Malaysia for holiday/attachment..It will be a first time for me and I'm feeling excited and nervous at the same time.Excited because it will be my first time going Terengganu,alone, and will be staying at a 5* Hotel/Resort,which i don't really get to stay in whenever I went for holiday at any place..=.= and which all those accomodation fee is paid by the company.Nervous because I'm not just going there to have fun alone but I also need to work.Handle those clients,entertain them and to keep checking everythings going according to plan.It's a first and I'm feeling soooo nervous and scared that I might not doing a good job on it and it will affect my IA result.=.= But hopefully I'm going to do just fine.So guys,please pray for me too. :)

This year,am not going to celebrate valentine's day and am not looking forward to it either.And truthfully,I've never really celebrate it.But I do have some experience ONCE before.It was nice and memorable.In fact,everytime 14th of Feb comes,all those memories will come back again.With my low luck in relationship,I don't think I'll be celebrating and I'm just thankful for that one memorable day.^^

2010-02-02T21:05:00.003+08:00

One month of attachment is over and I still have like 3 or 4 weeks to go.I really cant wait for it to end.Why?Coz I NEED a break! I miss my friend,I miss of having my own free time and most of all,I MISSS my OWN CAREFREE LIFE! After going through this for the past few weeks,I've turn myself into a zombie.It's tiring and exhausting!But that's how working life is,right?So yea,have to endure it for the next 2 to 3 weeks.Ganbate!

I'm not going to say my work is oh so breezy all the time.Sure,it's tought at times and got myself scolded too.But what did I do?I Just smile and try as much as I can to be positive all the way.^^ Even though deep down inside I feel like shit.=.='

And last friday was one of the best day of my life!apart from the other best day of my life...*rolling eyes. SHINEE!!!!!!!!! (yes,the one of a few things that can put a smile on my face after having a long and tiring day at work)Damn! Taemin is soooooo pweeeeetttyyyy!! and key,I thought he's a commoner without make-up and bcoz of him,it took me a few seconds to recognise him and made me miss seeing Jonghyun,Minho and Onew.=.=' The airport was soo damn crowded,more crowded than the last time I went to for Ft island.And surprisingly there's plentiful of guys too.Hmm..Interesting~ Though I never went for the fansigning session at Lot 1,I'm still content with just seeing them at the airport.^^ Hopefully they'll come again to Singapore soon.

2010-01-17T21:29:00.003+08:00

Sunday,the only day I'm off from work.Though tired I am from the whole 6 days of working like mad,dealing with customer's unrecognisable accent and of course,those unmerciful visa that always keep me from going back home on time.I'm still saving my very last energy to go out n have fun on weekends.

So Today I went out with my bestie to the National Museum to see the Mummy Exhibition.It was good.I love seeing those artifacts and those sphinx! Really bring back the memories that when I was young I used to wish to be an archeology.Haha..And as much as I really enjoy the exhibition those coffin n tomb and not forgetting one of the mummy really creeps me out.Why??Well,because the obvious reason that THAT is a REAL mummy lying down there.I've heard a lot of stories about mummies..curses,bad luck n even death.So yea,before I went in I did say my prayer.Superstitious??Nah~just being careful. :P

2010-01-08T22:03:00.003+08:00

It's been too long since I last post and now when I really want to blog,I dont know what to say anymore. =.='

Ok,it's been 4 weeks since I first start my attachment.So how was it?Hmm...so far so good.It's hard for me to adapt at first but after a while,they seem nice and everythings good. My job?Most of the time I'll just handle visa application.At first,it was quite complicated since the application need to be type in arabic and secondly the sponsor letter is all written in arab.So yea,need to remember all the arabic language I've already abandon for 2 yrs..Gah!! I need the dictionary!! N here I thought i'm not going to use arabic any longer. =.='

I really hate to be a slave for work.But that's the reality of this world.The only thing that makes them smile is the paycheck they get at the end of the day. ^^

2010-01-01T20:26:00.006+08:00

WELCOME 2010, GOODBYE 2009!!!!!!!

Every new year people keep on asking what's their new resolution are and their answer will always be the same old-be successful in life,to be happily in love,to be rich and blablabla..And for me?I'm just the same too.For me,there's nothing much to think of any strong resolution.Why?Coz I still think that I haven't achieve much from my previous resolution for the 2009 or even from the years behind.I still have a long way to go and I'm a slow person...=.=' So yea,I'm just gonna stick to my previous one and hopefully,slowly I will achieve it soon.

The year 2009 is the most memorable year I had so far.The joy of having new experience and also the year of having heart breaks.A lot had happen and I'm going to leave it there and I'm not going to bring it to this year.This new year,new chapter of my life..I wonder how it would be like.More interesting I hope..^^

It's surprising how sometimes I don't understand my feelings.You dig a whole in my heart and for bloody two years I suffer so much and tried to heal my wound.And just when I did success,you come and barge again,making my heart stir like the very first time,butterfly in my stomach all over again.Darn it! What happen to hatred and dissapointment??Where the heck is the feeling I'm suppose to feel??Will you be the star in my chapter for this 2010?or maybe just calefare like the last 2 years?

2009-12-27T21:41:00.005+08:00

First of all, to the people who keep on checking my blog (which I doubt many did) sorry for not being active. Ever since I start my work/attachment, my whole week is so pack and I've been busy. And so nothing much to blog about. But don't worry, I'm still alive and living. ^^

Last christmas was amazing for me. Why?? No, I'm not celebrating christmas. It's the day of my parent anniversary. So unlike last year which they always dine out together while all the rest of my sibling and I stays at home, this time we went out to dine at Pizza Hut, went to town, took some picture of christmas tree and not forgetting- SHOPPING!!! What I LOVE most about holidays is that there's A LOT of SALE! I spent a lot of stuff, bought new cloth from Pull and Bear, new shoes, got myself a ring for my birthday and most of all, got to spent time with my whole family. It's been a while since we did so, and so for the next day, we went to Bugis to catch the AVATAR 3D movie. ^^

Today was fun. Meet up with Sam,Syafiq,Minhui and Amylia. Just the five of us.Did I feel that I miss something?Yes,I did.I think everyone did feel so.But then,all we did is ignore it.It's all in the past now.So yea,no matter how I miss those days,no matter how I wish that I could turn back time. I know it won't happen and I know it won't be the same again.

2009-12-18T21:42:00.004+08:00

TIRED...TIRED..TIRED..TIRED!!!

My life has been like SHIT since last week! The chalet? URGH! WORST I tell ya..I have nothing to say much about the chalet thingy.Mostly there's DRAMA going on..people not happy..feels like going back home back then..But then,just thinking of the other f6..haiz..we just want to enjoy the last outing with each other,tried to forget the unhappiness..It's hard but we survive.^^

It's sad how love can make someone change into a different person.Sad,how they're not the one I knew before.We tried so hard on working this friendship,trying to make it last.But what's the use if someone is not involved in it.It's like trying to fix a broken glass which cannot be glued anymore.

I'm tired..so tired because of this..of trying to fix it..of trying to get people get back together.But what's more sad and heartbroken is that,I've lost a friend.If it's not meant to last,then I don't want to dwell on it.F9,I think this is the end.All along,we knew this thing will come one day..It's just about timing huh...

2009-12-13T20:34:00.006+08:00

The Soul'd Out Festival was AMMAAAZZIIINNGGG!! Even though half of the day was like @.@.Reach there ard 9.30 am but the queue was already damn long! N we're the 400+ ppl queueing.Some even bring out tent,n so I suppose they camp there the day before. The organizer sucks I tell you.So the whole day me,Amylia,Sam n Minhui rotting.Gosh,should have bring my Uno.

Don't ask me how I survive those looooong hours,coz I don't even know what I did.=.=' So after waiting for those boring long hours,plus the hotness of weather,the gate finally opened at 5+.We got a rather nice spot in a middle,not too near but not too far until the host starts to announce that they're going to start soon.All the rest stood up n run forward.And we,like silly gundu,follow too.And seriously,I like it better when we sit down.@.@ Coz I hate to stand up for long hours,what's with some of the person in front of me is taller than me,n what's with the pushing again.And so I have NO MOOD at all to take picture.grr..So I just enjoy the show and not thinking too much.After all I went there to have fun right?

Besides those bad things I hate the most.The performance was amazing! First,it's the traditional dance.I love those!Then next came the Drawing performance by three guy.Then the Jinjo break dancing group.So cool lah! ^^ N so lastly it was k-pop time! Ga-in looks damn pretty n HOT.I like her performing Abracadabra.So sexy~! kya!! N Mario performance really make me go high!Kim Joon,waaah~~ I still can't believe that I saw him LIVE! He looks skinny though.And Honki,swooon~ He's soo cute n he got damn nice vooice.N Jonghoon,waaaah~ He looks soo cool playing his guitar.^^ No matter how people keep on pushing,the heat of having other people so close to you.I really enjoy the concert last night.After all,amidst those things,I'm still happy coz I get to see a nice view of my favourite idol! huhuhu..

2009-12-11T00:15:00.003+08:00

"Are you going to stalk them tomorrow?"

"Me?No.Are you"

"Not sure.Maybe"

Ok,I still can't believe this.I'm actually seeing FT ISLAND LIVE!!! ^^ It was damn crowded eventhough it's not THAT many people,but still ALOT! Girls keep on screaming n making the false alarm too many times.Got my heart cheated n irritated at times,but I will never forget this experience.EVER!! If people ask me whether I'm going to do this again. :) I'll say,once is enough.Unless SUPER JUNIOR or DBSK coming.(which is sooo UNLIKELY)REally! Only those two,will I ever BATTLE at those ring again.Ok,maybe I should add Shinee too.

And finally I've seen them right before my eyes.So near..wah~~Hongki is not THAT tall.haha..but I love Jonghun.He's tall n damn good looking.Miss T-max Kim Joon eventhough he pass by infront of me..T.T coz I'm too preocupied with WHO is who..coz some of them wearing a hat/beanie with sunglass.So can't really recognise them.=.=' Got my heart cheated again,coz there's no Brown Eyed Girl..T.T It's ok,I'm going to the concert this Saturday.So no worries,going to see them soon.Oh my! Can't wait!

I miss SUPER JUNIOR!!!

p/s: Sorry no pic was taken during this event since this is a last minute thing.

2009-12-09T22:38:00.005+08:00

I hate it when you say you're fine when deep down inside you suffering.Cry if you have to,let it out and show it only to me.I know it's tough now,but you know I'm always there for you.Don't keep it to yourself.Take my hand and I'll take you to faraway place,where there is only you and me.A place where no one can enter beside us.A place where we can be our ownself without people judging us.A place to heal and to become strong again.We're in this together and I need you to be strong for me too.It doesn't matter anymore,coz all we got now is each other.

2009-12-06T01:35:00.003+08:00

Change.It's what people hate the most.But without change we also cannot be progressive n be better.Correct..no?It will be tough and sometimes you will get hurt along the way.But that also helps you to be much more stronger in the future.Emotional-sometimes I feel like being cold-hearted is more safer.You don't feel pain and you heck care what people think of you.You'll be safer that way n I like that.Fear-that's what I feel right now.People change,people drift apart.Again,this related to change.

OK,why am I talking this crap early in the morning??Truth is my feeling is really complicated right now.Sometimes I feel like my soul is not in my body anymore.Few times I've been thinking too much that I don't realise where I am.@.@ Sheesh..Until when I look around me..phew..im still here n not totally lost out there.

Tick Tock Tick Tock

The clocks ticking

Just few more...

Before I explode

And what's left of me is nothingness

2009-12-05T01:49:00.003+08:00

I miss you

Weekend pls come faster!!

Aitai..

2009-11-29T00:51:00.003+08:00

MORNING

Wanying,Aminah,Cheryl n Mayfeline came to my place to bake cupcakes for the upcoming project.Woke up SUPER LATE in the morning but quickly vacuum n clean up the house n just after I had my shower they arrived.So I had no time to have breakfast..T.T

AFTERNOON

We bake from 12pm to 5.30pm. The cupcakes turn out to be edible n nice except for the icing is too damn sweet! Need to adjust on that later on..

LATE AFTERNOON

Meet up with F9 (minus elizabeth n amylia) at vivo. Bring back ALOT of memories but still I try myself not to think TOO much! Just as I reached vivo,called syafiq n found out that minhui was missing.But luckily I found her crying n the rest came by after that.Seriously! they shouldn't bully her! Seeing her cry makes me want to cry too..dunno y..

1 step..

2 step..

3 step..

keep on going..

n don't look back..

2009-11-26T22:13:00.003+08:00

Keep on reminding myself not to get too attached.I don't want to get hurt n be hurt anymore.My wound is now slowly healing but why is it that it has to crack again.Right when I thought everything is going to be all right and I can move on.This feeling,I should have control it better.My mask that I've always put on starts to slip.What should I do now?Let it slip or should I hang it on still?

People say be true to your heart.But what if the truth hurts.Wouldn't it better to keep silent and pretend to ignore it?I'm not going to make the same mistake like I did before.So heart,listen to me! Do as I say and don't think tooo much!!

2009-11-24T20:56:00.005+08:00

Today got firedrill n my class was in charge and some of the girls pick their eye-candy class (I know some did..).And for me?I don't even care,my eye-candy already gone and I'm more worried about the interview afterwards.(But it turn out to be a lame one)And for the first time ever I was mistaken for being a girl from China! =.='

2009-11-23T21:32:00.004+08:00

Today RNT(reservation n ticketing) exaM is like shit.I'm taking too much time on 1st question that makes me left only few minutes to start with question 2.ARGH!! I tried booking SQ flight but NO SEAT!! I tried EVERY date which is available but then NO,there's none! So what did I do??I tell myself to calm down,start booking another flight n keep reminding myself NOT to panic.Coz I know myself,if I started to panic I know I can't do it and I can kiss my RNT exam goodbye..So I take my own sweet time..booking another flight and thank goodness it works.And just when I finish my 1st question..I just realise I only got 10 mins to start with question 2 and both of my friend who sat beside me already finish the WHOLE paper! So this is when I start to REALLY panic.What's with syahirah sitting just opposite me,keep on cursing at the abacus system and I start to get really more nervous.And because of that I wasted 15 mins on trying to solve the probelm of why I cannot print the blooody infant information tix when someone told me that I have a typo error.=.=' SEE,that's why I HATE when I'm panic.I cannot think straight and cannot see clearly..HAIZ....

Ok,I dont want to talk about that anymore.Everytime I think about it,I feel soo down I feel like..................

And today I went out to eat sushi at Ramen Ten with my bestie n my fren djah.They text me last minute so I have to cancel with minhui to accompany her to go polyclinic.So sorry minhui..=.=

I miss them really bad,we hardly met each other since they're busy with their life.I have a great time with them,talking,sharing stories..^^We should do that more often.^^

This days,I just dont understand myself.I get moody,emo,n sometimes I feel like my life is meaningless.Hmm..maybe because of hormonal imbalance??

Sometimes I wonder myself,why is it that we live so near to each other but we hardly bump into each other??I can't deny myself that at times,I think of him n hopefully that we might start talking to each other again.But then again,if we do happen to bump each other..What then?Am I going to secretly HOPE that things will be better next time?I doubt so.Everytime I open up my msn and saw that you're online,I feel like talking to you again.I want to ask 'How are you' and 'Are you still rotting at home doing nothing again??' haha..I miss the old times.At times,I feel like deleting ur msn and by doing so I think I might erase you totally fom my life.But then again,I cannot lie to myself.tsk!

2009-11-21T00:30:00.004+08:00

Reach home at 11.50 pm,feel damn tired,just had shower but I can't sleep now coz my hair still wet n I cannot use hairdryer coz it's BAD for the hair! And here I am posting this blog with
banana and plain water to accompany me and of course 2 days one night.seungi looks damn cute!! ^^

Tried my new nightwear n..........it's too ********* not like what I expected it would be..=.=' but I still love it! it's cute..hehe

Today BEG is .........................@.@ I know I wont fail the test but the grade worries me.Hopefully I got good grades..haiz.. *prays really hard.

2009-11-16T22:53:00.003+08:00

Phew! Finally the formal wear is OVER~ I still can't believe that we spent sooo much time on finding the perfect formal wear, when the test only takes you abt not more than 5 minutes! T.T

My head is spinning,my body is aching and I'm freeeeezing cold.Feel soo lazy to come to school tomorrow..@.@ haiz...

2009-11-15T21:28:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since I've last stay at home during the weekend,doing nothing but rotting.The weather's pretty nice to sleep and that's what I did today.Sleep,eat,sleep,eat n do a bit of studying BEG.^^

Just few more day to BEG test!! GAH!! *nervousnervous

And because of badminton on last friday,my shoulder is aching and so is my arm till now. T.T I really hate it! My brother already massage me few times already and it still feel soo pain.T.T Pls oh pls..let it heal faster..

I'm not looking forward for tomorrow Formal Attire test.I need to wake much EARLIER than usual to do make-up.ugh! I hate it! N I forgot to practise with the eye liner..@.@ n I need to make sure my blouse will not be crumple by the time I reach school,have to make sure my make-up is not tooo simple but still look presentable,coz I'm not going to wear eyeshadow n mascara.N I still don't know how to do my hair.Let it down or clip?Haiz..leceh btul lah kalau tak pakai selendang ni..nak kena pikir2 psl rambut ni..haiz..

2009-11-09T21:36:00.003+08:00

I just did a really really REALLY bad thing that I SWORE to myself that I wont do it again..But..haiz..some ppl just love to push my button,don't they??

This is what happen when I'm tired from school,just got back home and she started to shoot me..I tried to hold back,but hell! this is really pisses me off!! I don't mind if she just want to advice me or what,but should she really have to make it sound so SARCASTIC?? My life,my choice.Even if it all fails,at least I try.I mean,come on! No one really knows what the future brings us..Can't she just accept that??

I know from the start,she really hates my choice.But really,she NEED to accept it whether she likes it or not.

Am I really changing to someone else??attitude problem??too rebellious??Is this what she sees in me the whole time??A good girl gone bad??Seriously,Im not! I know myself better and this IS me.A rebellious girl at times from WAY back then..even both of my parents knows it..haiz..

She really need to draw a line n not cross overboard..or else she's gonna hear me ROAR n I dont really care who she is..relatives or not!

2009-11-05T22:47:00.003+08:00

This term really stresses me out.It's too rushing and this 2 new module is really ~.~..Today common test is OIT.So far it was ok,but I'm still nervous that I made few mistakes that will pull my grade down.But hopefully not..*keep my fingers cross and keep on praying

Lately my mood is like really down,change of mood easily and hyper all of a sudden n easily depressed.(*.*) I don't know why,maybe hormones again??or maybe I'm just following the weather..It's raining lately n dats why im always so sad so often..hmm..But really,life really sucks for me this days.What's with RNT,OIT and ATTACHMENT!! plus my personal problem..Dang! I feel like dying~

The hardest part of being me is to express myself

But only you

Yes, you

can only understand me and know what I feel without me saying anything

the only person who I can turn to when I really need one

and only to you,I will remove my mask and let you see my true colour

Thanks again for being with me all this time

and support me all the way eventhough sometimes what my decision is not always the right way (?)

*I love you Huda! ^^

2009-10-31T01:41:00.003+08:00

Hello there!

I know it's been WEEKS since I've last post.I should have upload pictures abt the Hainan trip but I'm still tooo lazy to do so..Gome ne! :P Anyway,the trip was HELLA-FUN! Though the bad thing abt it is dat I CANT speak chinese! but thanks to my chinese clique,they're my translater..^^ The food there was very hmmm how should I put it?not much different but I have to be careful of what I eat.So mostly I just ate rice,egg n veggie..n imagine for the whole 4 days I need to to get use to eat rice in a small bowl with chopstick!It's tooo hard at first but after a while got use to it n it's not dat bad..~.~

I love visiting some interesting places there,the beaches,the interesting people where you can't find in Singapore..the weather..^^ n I still can't believe I've went to Hainan..Looking at those pictures,wow!I've been to part of China..hehe..

Didn't shop much there,but anyhow I still love the trip and I will NOT EVER forget it! Just another few months and we'll go on our seperate ways..Just enjoy it while it last~

2009-10-12T23:38:00.008+08:00

It's tough when you have an expensive hobby like me.I'm not talking about skydiving,diving in the sea etc etc which cost a THOUSAND OF DOLLARS!..Even though in my case it's not that expensive like any others,but it still expensive for me! considering I'm still a student n yet I've spend few hundreds of dollars for comic n some figurine. SIGH! I used to collect comics and some figurine which I LOOOOOVVVEEE SOO MUUUUCH! but now I have to stop for a while.I'm still a student and unemployed..T.T GAHH!! Just thinking of it.....T.T

And Just looking at those dreamofdoll parents and their daughter n son really makes me jealous and wants to adopt one.KYA!!! why are they freaking expensive???well ok,the doll is handmade/handcraft one but still!!$500+ for the body and THAT does not include the outfit,the wig,the eyes n plus the makeup??Adopting a children is suuure expensive.GAHH! I guess for now I will just see them from a far n haave some picture taken..T.T wait till i work I tell ya,if I still have a chance,I'm gonna OWNED you, Homme Ducan! I'm sooo gonna adopt him n make him more feminine?? Haha..

*www.dreamofdoll.com

Enough about that,first day of school and I already start learning about doing reservation flight.It's cool and yet scary at the same time.There's tooo many codes and numbers.I'm sooo freaking HATE numbers..DANG! But still I have to learn though,must have confidence in myself! RIGHT! GANBAREMASU! After all,it's for the attachment thing too,who knows I might end up doing ticketing?right?

This year of AnimeAsiafestival I'm sooo gonna go! After having to miss the toysncomicconvention this few months before bcoz of loads of school project n schoolwork,Im not gonna miss it again.So anyone interested in joining me??

Kya!!! Hainan trip is confirm and I'm leaving this thursday.Wee~ soo happy..Finally got to go overseas besideS MALAYSIA..^^ omgomg! I haven't even start packing!

2009-10-02T01:09:00.003+08:00

Today's exam result came out n it's bad.Only got 2.75..SIGH! Only 3 B's and 1 C. Gahh!!! I'm really dissapointed! Feels like.............

So today's mood (-.-)

I really tried my best..but I guess it's not good enough.Haiz..No use of thinking too much over it.It's not going to change anyway..

Feels like going somewhere where people can't find me..really,that's what I feel right now.

Don't be too sad-I keep reminding myself.But I can't help it! I keep thinking over and over and I feel bad again and I start to get depressed.So before it got any worse,went out for a movie with Zahidah,(old schoolmate which I've never met for like a year)and did some shopping therapy.I know it's a waste of money,but it feels good so that's what really matters.Feels good~

No matter what happen,be strong! and keep on smiling.Don't let anyone see your tears.Even if life really brings you down,you know what you have to do.Keep on smiling. :)

2009-09-27T02:19:00.003+08:00

Todays weather: Darn Hot!

*Pls let it rain tomorrow

Jdrama I'm currently watching--->

Voice

Otomen

Orthros no inu

Kdrama I'm currently watching--->

Take care of young lady

Variety show I'm currently watching--->

None!

*introduce some to me anyone?

Feel soo bored tonight.I'm gonna watch some jdrama and do some quizes before I go to sleep.N oh ya,not forgetting to read before going to bed.^^ Oyasumi minna san! Mata ashita!

2009-09-24T11:17:00.006+08:00

I've been MIA for the past few weeks

People who visit might think 'is the blog dead?'

Friend say I should update faster

So here I go.....

Everytime I check on facebook,there will always be a new update photo of raya.Some asked "Why you never update your raya picture?" What I did reply was 'I'd rather keep my family member hidden from those stranger eyes' (well,some of it anyway.)^^

First Day of Raya

For this year theme was suppose to be pink but for the last minute and some personal reason, we changed to blue.Lucky for me,my new cloth for this is a combination of pink n blue-so no prob.^^ And for the first time this year,we'd finished visiting my relatives before midnight.So yea we break a record! It's too tiring for me to be home late,plus there'll be the 2nd day of visiting on the next day.

2nd Day of Raya

This time round,I'd end up home at midnight.It's tiring but I did have fun.And yes,I just found out that one of my auntie is soooo into korean drama.And her daughter have lots of korean dvd drama.Woot! Surprising.^^ What's cute is that she say anyeong when we left.haha..so cute really!

3RD day

I did not go out and I just slack at home.End of story!

Yesterday

Went out to watch 2 movies with school mate.Gamer in the morning with Minhui and The Ugly Truth next with Minhui,Sam,Amylia,Liyen,Shimin,Shafiq n Des.Then we went to play pool,had some supper before heading home.Reach home around 12.05am.Tired~~

Can't wait for someone to swept me off my feet.Where the hell is my knight in shining armour?! wait,does this person really exist anymore?

2009-09-14T11:12:00.010+08:00

This past few days really tires me out.Why?Coz for the last 3 day straight I went out eating outside.What aM i DOING?! I'm suppose to be rotting at home..(~.^)It's holiday after all and raya is just few days away..I should start cleaning my messy room! SIGH..

LAST FRIDAY---went out with Sam,Minhui,Amylia and Desmond to watch G-Force.The movie was ok.We went to lots of place,from orchard to dhoby ghout to vivo city.And I bought my first EVER teddy bear for myself! ^^ It's sooooo cute! I love my gloomy bear very very much! hehe

LAST SATURDAY---went out iftar with my old school mate(Amirah,Asiah,Nirwana,Fatin,Sri,Shahidah n Fadilah),catching up with each other.Most of them already start working and some still studying like me.Oh,I envy those who works..T.T

YESTERDAY---went out to celebrate Aminah's birthday.We bought for her Charles n Keith wallet n she really LOVES it.

TODAY---what's the plan??Going out again to celebrate Khai's birthday.SIGH! Can I skip it?No.Since it's an outing with most of the malays in my class,so yea obviously I can't be racist to my own kind.Lol!

2009-09-10T20:36:00.003+08:00

YAY!!! Finally exam's over and I'm gonna rot at home for a month...^^ Now that the exam is over,I feel that my life is full of 'emptiness'.(*.*) Hopefully I pass this exam.I feel soo scared.This time around I feel that I'm not doing very well.SIGH..I hope everythings gonna be allright.

I can't wait for the overseas trip next month,eventhough it's not confirm yet but hopefully it will work out.I wanna travel with my friends!!!!

Just two more weeks to raya and I haven't even bought my baju raya.And I havent even decide what colour to wear for the first day of raya.Purple is OUT!NO yellow and obviously NO white.Any suggestion??

*Sorry for the short post for today.But like I say before my life is pretty boring right now.I'll update when something interesting pop out in my life..:P

2009-09-05T23:38:00.000+08:00

I'M NOT IN LOVE!

2009-08-23T22:40:00.005+08:00

Sorry for not being updating this blog for quite sometime.For all you know,I'm still alive and living k..So no need to worry about me.I've been SUPER busy this days.I don't know what I've been up too..I really can't recalled.Hmm..let see,been bUSY with project that our group need to RE-DO. Darn that teacher! Never explain properly what she really wants..Next,I have been busy with class test,script play,and mostly I'm just too tired with all that weekend outing.Really got a good scolding from my mum for having too much outing this days.But I can't help myself.I need some entertaining and FUN to distress myself.She should understand this.School life is HELL!! but I still enjoy it anyways..

TWO MORE WEEKS TO EXAM!!!

I haven't start revising and I think I should start from now! I should cut down my weekend and should spend more time in revising for my exams.Kyakyakya!! I'm soo nervous!

I miss my old friend.I wonder how are they doing now..Hmm..I hope they all in a good health and always remember me like I remember them.^^

Sometimes I feel like I've changed.For better or worse,I'm not sure myself.But maybe it's just my thought all alone.Too much stress sure can make your mind running wild.. This fasting month,I hope I can cleanse myself,be much stronger than I used to be and hopefully be more decent?:P Everytime fasting month came,all kind of thoughts and memories come back to me.I miss the old days where I've experience LOTS of things.From heartbreaking memories to the sweet memories I wish not to EVER forget till I grow old! Remember those days,SIGH..never thought that I'm strong enough to go through with all that.All those hardship I went through..but I did anyway..

This fasting months,I wonder what memories I'll have this time..Hopefully it will be a better one than the last one..

2009-08-12T23:01:00.003+08:00

I hate this feeling where my temperature keep on playing tricks on me.Urgh! Feels like I'll be getting fever soon..T^T

This feeling I feel right now

It's not coming back issit?

2009-08-02T22:45:00.008+08:00

NIGHT AT THE PERANAKAN MUSEUM

SOMEWHERE ALONG THE ROAD...

NIGHT AT THE ESPLANADE

*Next stop- ART MUSEUM!

2009-08-01T00:03:00.003+08:00

Reach home at 11.40 pm,my feet feel sooo achingly painful

Too much walking today.

Went to eat Pasta Mania with my clique.

While waiting for Wanying n Mayfeline

Saw the Gu jun Pyo n Jihoo and his group of friend

Luckily 'dat person' was not with them

They didn't even notice us-so PHEW!

Next stop,we went to take neoprint

the favourite past time we've long left it behind :P

It was fun

But hopefully Aminah will join us next time

After taking neoprint we part ways

Amelia,Sam n Min hui went to bugis street

So left me,wanying,mayfeline n Cheryl

We went to the Peranakan Museum

Nearly 30 mins we lost our way trying to find the place

We even went to the hotel to take the brochure of the museum in Singapore

How pathetic are we??I know~~

We are like tourist coming to Singapore for the first time

But it was cool~

We read the map to find the place (this is the time we show our skill of reading map..:P)

Our own little adventure to Peranakan Museum!

(~.^)

It was amazing,my first time going to museum in Singapore

Plus we also become camwhore for the whole day!

*Will be updating photo soon.

2009-07-30T00:21:00.003+08:00

Never knew such show can bring me so much sadness

Making me cry by just watching it

Eventhough it's just a show

Eventhough I know how the ending will be

And I hardly have a crush on the main character

Why?Why?

Why must be the ending be like that?

The power of tv show surely can messes your head

T.T

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I think I should stop watching mnet scandal for now

2009-07-23T23:02:00.005+08:00

Today I got class photo.I don't know how am I gonna look like but hopefully it's going to be just fine~ And I saw him!! He loooks sooo dashing in his waiter outfit.(I always call the outfit 'the butler' outfit)Kyakyakya!!And yes I cant help myself from smiling ear to ear.Heh! And Aminah keep on being angry with me for making the 'stupid face' (smiling WIDELY) Argh!! I want to see him again!!

By now he should stop staring at me.He creeps me off and NO,I'm not interested in him.He should know the signal by now.

Today DTG test was ok.Even though I have few wrongs,I hope I will still pass! Pray hard!! After school my fren(mayfeline,Aminah,Wanying,Elizabeth)and I went to Far East Plaza to eat at Puncak there.Mayfeline keep on craving her nasi goreng ikan bilis that she can't stop talking about it at school.^^ So after we ate,we window shopping at Far East before we chill and talk over ice cream at McCafe.When I ordered mango smoothie and cheesecake,their face was like (O.O).

"You've just ate rice.You're still hungry??"

"NO.After I eat my meal I always have dessert."

And they show me THAT face again and laugh.

Ok~I know I eat a lot.But that's how I usually eat.I can never be complete or full without one.^^

So after that we walk around ION the new shopping mall.The mall is soooo huge and sooo high class.You can find all the branded stuff and new brand there..Burbery,Prada,LV and some new brand shop.Walao!It looks soo cool~~Too bad I cant shop there..It's WAY out of my league..heh!

2009-07-18T22:49:00.007+08:00

This morning I've received a call from Fatin.Bloody hell! It was 6:40 am when I answered her call,said that she wanted to meet me at Mcdonald near my house.It was rather suspicious when she suddenly call to meet me.But heck! I was like sooo blur in the morning,I couldn't care less.Besides,what could have been bad meeting your friend,right??right??WRONG! After having a quick shower,I rushed to Mcdonald and to my surprise.HE IS THERE!with Fatin and her other two friends.Right,just great.Meeting him with no make-up at all.SOOO unglamorous! T.T

And the date?it was ok..I was pretty nervous at first.Why?Coz I haven't been to date for..lemme see..nearly a year??And all my dating skill become rusty already..LOL..I know this sounds weird,but everytime I went out for a date,I always remember HIM and suddenly I feel soo sad that I feel like going back home,leaving my date behind.I don't know why.I've moved on.I've accepted that we're not meant to be together and I already start to let go of him.But why must he pop up in my mind again??

Memories~Sure can make you happy and depressing at the same time.

SUPER JUNIOR

2 PM

SS501

SHINEE

CHARM me

SEDUCE me

Make me forget this pain

Make me forget everything

2009-07-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

I can't stand this anymore!!

I'm gonna break soon

No,make it NOW!

Fuck them all!!! I just wish you could just bloody dissapear!

2009-07-16T20:20:00.005+08:00

Its been a tiring and stressful days I had lately and I've kept getting more and more weird dreams this days.What's wrong with me??Problems?Yes,I do have one.But that's normal,right?Sometimes,I feel so weak when it comes to problem.I'm not good at handling them.Either I always ignore it or I kept on thinking about it too much.Sigh~ I can be soo pesimistic at times.

Everytime I'm at school,I always show my brighter side of me.Being funny,cheeky,always checking up on guys(eventhough there's nothing much to look at)and hyper all the time.It's how I deal with it-by trying to ignore it.But I can't always hide it from everyone and pretend that I'm always fine.I'll suffocate-I know~

There's always a time when I feel that I can't take it anymore.I would feel like smashing everything near me.It's just how I deal with it (I can't cry it out no matter how I feel like doing it)

So today I skip school,not feeling too well because of gastric pain.It always come when I feel trouble.So yea..I deserve it a rest for one day.I need a break to collect myself and remain calm and positive.My mum seems to be in good mood this morning,she just let it go when I say I'm not going to school because of gastric pain.I seems to inherit this gastric pain from my mum's family.My aunt just been hospitilised because of gastric pain and here I am,never thought that gastric pain can be futile.

2009-07-12T20:54:00.007+08:00

Everyone have their own wishful thinking when it comes to their perfect guy.Be it logical or not.Some people wants their perfect guy to be rich.Some people wants their guy to be as good looking as their idol.And mine is no exception.Even if I can't have such a cute/adorable/handsome/hot guy like my favourite idol.Atleast I want him to have a bit of a resemblence of my fav idol.NO? Don't lie! You guys are just the same like me.

I know this is just one of my wishful thinking that it might not happen-AT ALL.But seriously,people say that we have at least 7 ppl who looks the same like us.And maybe you might experience yourself-like when some people wrong you for a different person.I've experience that myself.You've heard it all right and you probably know it too.So we have at least,hmm..30% of a chance to bump into that particular someone?

Wondering why I've been mentioning about this stuff?? Well..it just happen today I've met this particular guy.He has the EXACT same eyes like Heechul.And I'm not lying.Even my friend say it looks the same.I even show her the picture of Heechul-Even I doubt myself. And YES,he got the same eyes.Kya!Kya!Kya!

He himself is good looking,no doubt about that.Did I mention that he IS cute??Even my friend say so.Wow~~I've always said that I really want a guy who at least resembles one of my fav idol.And deep down I know it won't happen.Never knew I would actually bump into one.Hahaha..Life is sooo full of surprises eh~~

SIGH~~ I want to see him again.Let's hope that he's working this weekend..(~.^)

P/S: The moment I saw him and notice was his eyes.He looks sooo chinese but I found out that he's malay. (^.^)

2009-07-10T20:31:00.006+08:00

It's been a while since the last time I saw him.He's like a rare breed,always appear once in a blue moon.He always make my heart skip a beat when he's near.Sheesh! Why am I feeling like this?We're like so near yet so far..Iiieee..I should stop thinking bout him.Face the fact! He's not meant to be yours!!

I'm done with you!

I'm not going to elaborate more.I just keep this simple n clean.Been through alot n tired myself..

N oh ya,not forgetting today is a special day.

It's Heecul's birthday!!! (^.^)

Yes,my pretty boy Kim Hechul

Hope that he's not too worry about his weight.He looks just fine to me and he needs to eat MORE! Hope that he has fun celebrating with his friend and always be happy in what ever is he doing.No matter how old you get,age is just a number.You're always be my Heesica..^^ Since you keep complaining about ur love life-cut down ur online gaming n start looking for that special someone! k? :P

2009-07-07T21:15:00.003+08:00

2nd term already start.I should focus on my study more now?Right,I should cut down my internet.Stop watching starking,2pm,suju,shinee n here goes the list..But I don't think I can help myself.They're my only source of happy pills.Without them I don't know how I can handle my stress n tiredness of liFe and school.But oh well,if it's for my own good..I will try! S-L-O-W-L-Y..

Life can be sooo unfair.Why the person I don't like,likes ME?and Why the person I like,doesn't even know I exist??Oh ok,maybe he knows I'm exist but I'm just a normal passerby that he hardly notice.Haiz..

Complain,complain n more complain..

Tsk!tsk!tsk!

2009-07-01T22:11:00.008+08:00

Today I went to school to pass up the Dtg project.YAY~~Finally it's over..Back at school it was damn quiet.The January intake student haven's start yet..maybe they'll start the same with the April intake which is on 6th July.Sigh..Thought of seeing my ***** crush..Too bad then..

Wanying cancel last minute to go to school with me and so I'd go with Min hui and Amelia.Min hui lost her voice and I can't understand HALF of her saying..=.= I think she lost her voice because of TOO MUCH screaming for Hongki??LOL Then after that,me and Amelia went to Marina Square to eat coz after that I meet my mum there.She left as soon as my mum arrived.Then I bought puma pump shoe.WEEEE~~ I've been wanting to buy puma pump shoe-It's for school actually n my 2nd bro keep on nagging me why would I buy expensive shoe.The thing is,I don't know why but cheap shoe don't last long for me.After 5 mths it will get torn.^^

Don't stop now! JUMP JUMP!

I'm HOOK to this song! It keeps on singing in my head.I love Big Bang's new song.SCREAM!! Top is HOT as always.Daesung looks AMAZING! Taeyang charismatic as always.Seungri-Hot!But what's with G-Dragon's hair??EEK! whatever it is,no matter how much I hate those weird2 hairstyle he got lately,he can still pull it off.Damn you for having such looks! :P

And not forgetting HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear dear EETEUK!!

Hope he's happy as always,stay healthy and have a successful career in yrs ahead.Don't let your dimple to dissapear and don't stress too much and if he really can't take it.He SHOULD take a rest or ask for help!

Saranghaeyo~~!

2009-06-29T01:12:00.004+08:00

I know things aren't going your way

You're probably confuse

I have my moments

Please understand

So bear with me and don't give up

Just give me some time

*I have so much to say but words don't come easy on me now.Maybe I should clear my head first before posting.

2009-06-27T12:48:00.007+08:00

Aaaaahh!!! I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!! Why?? I got sunburn,that's why! I promise myself not to swim at Sentosa,but I don't keep that promise.As soon as I see the sea..it's calling me...haiz..and now my face become tan..T.T But yesterdays outing was fun! Even though the weathers like damn hot and I just got back from holiday and was tired-I really had fun. And thanks Amelia,bcoz of you my hair turns grey faster than it should be. Bloody hell!! If only I could run faster..T.T

So after we went to Sentosa,we ate at Vivo City at Banquet and next we hang out at the rooftop there and took some pic,we had gurl talk and we played truth or dare.My truth was easy,got the easiest question and when it's my turn to have the dare.I told them to give me the easiest one.hehe..n even though it was embarrassing-yes,I did accomplished it.. ^^

2009-06-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't been much posting lately,eventhough it's holiday.But oh well,nothing interesting today too.It's just that I've been feeling tired.Haven't had enough sleep.I went to my aunt's chalet at Pasir Ris yeaterday n of course we sleep really late.So anyway,for your information,I'll be going to KL tomorrow.Weee~~ holiday!! ^^

2009-06-18T02:13:00.004+08:00

I'm piss.I'm bored.

I'm piss that my PS2 is spoil.

I'm piss that I fail the last mission in Chronos Legion.

I'm piss that the controller is spoil.

I'm bored that no one is entertaining me.

I'm bored that there's nothing interesting on t.v today.

My 2nd brother got back home at 12.15 am. He got me worried there.He's not the type who go out and went back home late.Plus,he never told me that he's going out today.Found out that he went to my aunt's place at Chua Chu Kang to get his hair cut by my cousin. (*.*)

I should stop looking at Suju's picture!

I should stop looking at Suju's picture!!

I should stop looking at Suju's picture!!!

WTH?!

I'm bored so don't care~~

2009-06-15T01:31:00.003+08:00

As soon as I got the news that eeteuk is depressed,I just have to REALLY check on it.I thought it was just rumours.You know how some people or fans can exagerate things?So what did I do??I bloody spent an hour just to find and to check his cyworld..n unfortunately-it is true. T.T

Hopefully he don't do anything stupid like commiting suicide.I know korean showbiz is like damn harsh and many of the artist did actually commit suicide.I'm actually surprise how high the rate of artist in Korea turns to drug n suicide.Hopefully he's strong and NOT do anything STUPID!! Be strong! I don't want anything bad happen to him.He's my source of happiness,my sunshine,my medicine when I'm depressed.I know just how he feels.Depressing can be very deadly.Been there done that.

**I'm not going to start with my depression story anymore.I'm moving on now and try to let go of the past and not looking back anymore.

In the first place he should be ready when he enter showbiz.This time will come sooner or later.To obtain one dreams is just to sacrifice the others.And SM should have let them rest for a while.They're humans too and need a break at times.sob..sob..Health is more important than making more money! SM!! you should know this!

This makes me remind of myself.Just to realize my dreams,I need to sacrifice too.But sometimes,I also wonder will all my hardwork....??Hmm..nvm Im not going to that part.

2009-06-14T22:13:00.007+08:00

I don't know why

But it feels like I'm sinking

deeper and deeper into the cold dark ocean

No matter how much I cry for help

No one seems to hear

My throats starts to hurt

Water starts to fill me

It's so hard to breath

Fear

That's what I feel now

I just want to get out from here

So please someone

save me before it's too late

2009-06-13T13:10:00.008+08:00

Yay!!!!!

BANZAI!!!

School holiday starts today!!

I've been waiting for this day to come.Eventhough it's only for 3 weeks n still there's a project need to be done soon.I'm sooo happy!! No need to go to school.No need to be rushing in the morning with ppl keep on pushing my bag(Darn! it's bloody annoying)No need to be fighting for a seat.Hahaha..

So what's my plan for this 3 week holiday???Hmmm..I've thought of hibernating for the WHOLE 3 weeks! HAH! n please don't call me lazy,I just need to rest my body,recharging myself..^^ so please be understanding k??

Right,cut the crap.My initial plan is just to get together with my old friends.I miss them LOTS! I just want to go out with Djah before she left to study abroad.I want to catch things up with Zahidah,I miss her too.I want to get together with my JBS mate,if that possible..N fatin! You've let me down TWICE!! But that's ok,we're going to meet up next week..So I can't wait for it.N finally my very own lovely cousin,Nurul.I know you've been asking me when's my holiday TWICE! So I know you're going to ask me out.:P So now you can..^^ so pls book me sooon k?? ^^

Whoah~that goes the list..n not forgetting there will be classmate bonding on the 3rd week and I need to pass up the DTG project on 1st July..Haiz..Seems to be I'll be busy too for this school holiday.I need time for myself too!! OK,I'll be slotting that down too..

** I miss my mummy

2009-06-10T21:14:00.007+08:00

I don't really like reading or watching GuyXGuy at first.I don't know why but that doesn't interest me.I usually get bored by that and I get goosebump by wathcing it.eeek!! I mean come on,guy n guy??Urgh!! But there's alot of fanfiction doing story about guy coupling.For those who into kpop,I'm sure you really know what I'm talking about here.Sure,I'm very open minded towards this.But the first time I see my Jaejoong couple with U-know in a mini drama.That FREAKS me out!! Sure,it was hillarious.But let me tell you,I never did finish watching the whole video of it.It gives me goosebump!Up until now..(*.*)

But as a favour from my darling friend whose into U-know *rolling eyes I have to read her fanfiction story-Jaejoong n U-know couple.I was reluctant at first when she ask me to read hers. I told her I'm not into GuyXGuy but she insisted so there,I've read her first few chapters.And it's not THAT bad.I've known her and really,she's good at writing up stories.We used to switch stories too.Like back in high school,when I'm bored I like to write stories and so did she,and we would like trade each other stories.It was fun. I've miss those days..

But since I was sooo busy lately with projects,I haven't had time to read all of it.But just last monday I've read the latest post she did,skipping all the 5th chapter n jump into hmm..what,12 chapter??Can't really remember..(K,I'm going to read the skipping chpt as sooon as the holiday starts) The latest chapter was Oh my! I think I got nosebleed..Haha..For the first time ever,she did a rated story.And it's not bad for a first timer.Hmm..I wonder how in the world did she started to get sooo good in that thing.HAH! I want my jaejoong in my bed NOW!!!! :P

P/S: I just love how he licks his lips..*nosebleed again

Sorry Minhui,this time I'm not going to let him go.So better choose someone else k? :P

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My pants are getting tighter

Day by day

I'm gaining weight

(=.=)

Diet??

No way!!

I love my food too much

Yes!

Too much!!

2009-06-08T22:28:00.003+08:00

My mood right now is like

........................................

Understand???

Love me

Hate me

You decide

2009-06-02T20:39:00.003+08:00

I was watching Music Bank when my mum came and sat next to me, eating her kueh. And at that time, it was SUPER JUNIOR performing 'Sorry Sorry'. Apelagi..I was all hype and started to sing along too..hehe

*MOM

*ME

"What's this? Japanese?"

"No! It's korean!"
Then I point at Eeteuk

"See, that's MY one! Handsome right???"
Ignored

(*.*)

"Ibu! That one is also my 2nd hubby.Very handsome!!"

squeal!!

Pointed at Heechul

"So many?!"

"Handsome right?right?right?"

"NO. That one is more handsome."

Pointed at Kangin.

DANG!

(*.*)

To think that my mum has the same taste like me is sooo proven that I'm her real daughter, connected by blood..LOL! Why I say that??Coz Kangin is also my top 3 favourite suju member..^^ Not bad,mum. You still have good taste when it comes to guy..:P So the next time you want to find a guy for me, please find me the cutest one like him,k?? *WINK

Top 3 Favourite suju member I like

1) Eeteuk

2) Heechul

3) Kangin

2009-05-30T22:40:00.005+08:00

BIG NEWS!!

(kpop zone)

I don't know whether this is some kind of a big news,but anyway for Suju's fan..Eunhyuk's got a girlfriend!! WOOT!! I'm surprised..Never thought that he would actually reveal it.Artist suppose to keep their private life private right??haha..that's what I like most about suju.They always being themselves and not pretending like any other artiste..hmm.and I also found out that he did promise to tell the fan,as soon as he got one..So yea..found out that he actually post it in his homepage but remove it later after 20 mins..Hahaha...I guess he doesn't want the fans bashing her..lol!

As eunhyuk fan,I'm really happy for him.^^ N hopefully the crazy fan will take it very calmly..Korean fans can be VERY SCARY...Sometimes when they idolize their idol...they're like OWNING them!! Sheesh! some people should taught them some manners..(*.*) Idols have their own life too,so as a fan,we should understand and always root for them. ^^

Finally eunhyuk's got a gurl.He should be really happy n lucky gurl!!^^ I wonder is there any one of them already attached??Hmm..I really hope that eeteuk's attached soon..I really can't wait for him to get married.haha..weird right??Even though I'm his big fan n really like him alot..I know..I'm realistic ok..Not some people..HAHA..I'll be curious to know whose the lucky gurl..kyakyakya...

2009-05-29T23:59:00.003+08:00

I'm tired

I'm sleepy

I miss my ******

2009-05-25T17:45:00.003+08:00

Today I'm not going to school.

It's all because of my spec again..plus I have no mood to go to school and face the school project that won't not end.

So yes, I need a break.

So half of the day I just sleep,resting my body to prepare for tomorrow napfa test.

Shhessh!! I'm not ready for tomorrow...

Tasukete!!!!

2009-05-23T10:34:00.003+08:00

Urgh!! my head keeps on having dizziness..For your guys information,my eyes been hit by a badminton racket! How that happen??I don't really remeber.All I know,while playing badminton happily n excitingly..My vision suddenly become blur and dark.I can't see anything for a few sec!Then people started to surround me without offering me any help until my friend did.I feel soo piss off!! I know it's not entirely the guy's fault.Since we've played in small place,things bound to happen and it hit me.Right..seems like my lady luck is not on my side lately.I keep on having problem and MORE problems.Luckily,there's nothing wrong with my eyes.It's just a bruise that will take a few weeks or two to heal.And luckily my spectacle desn't break.Imagine if it breaks,HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO SEE?? My spec is my life!! and yes,my spec does turn slanted but after having it fix.Everything's ok now..And eventhough I'm planning to rest for the weekend-I CAN'T! I still have to finish up the project that seems to keep on piling more and more! Then tomorrow I have to practise my 2.4 running.My napfa test is on this tuesday!! AAAH!! How am I going to pass this???I'm not athletic and I'm not even good in sport.And please don't talk about stamina..I'll be panting just a few steps..haiz..

2009-05-20T22:03:00.003+08:00

Today I just feel soo down and moody.At school,I had a bit of a conflict with my team about the project thingy.It's just a bit of misunderstanding and lack of communication.I'm not really mad with them,just dissatisfaction.And I know I speak my mind and some of them seems surprise by my bluntness.When I already start,I just don't know how to stop and I feel soo bad now.Hopefully they just take it positively and don't hate me.I just want this to work out well and I want to do it correctly.Eventhough I may seems very outgoing and a lil bit crazy.When it comes to work,I really want to ace it and can be very demanding.Gomenei~~

*Sometimes it scares me how demanding I can be..kowaii~~

Yes,you're right..I should control my short temper of mine..But don't worry I don't hate them.Besides,work is work and friend is friend.I don't like to mix it together..Know what I mean?Plus I understand this thing bound to happen sooner or later..We just need to learn how to handle them.

Right..now some of my friends already know what I really am..(~.^)
I really hate to show people my true self unless someone is close to me.But it can't be help then.You have to accept me me whether you like it or not..^^

2009-05-19T00:18:00.003+08:00

Yay!! I just finish up my costing project which took me at least 3 hours! I know I shouldn't have a problem using microsoft Excel but I rarely use that so it took me a while to figure things out.I also forgot what the teacher said about how it should be done.Haiyya..But nevertheless I figure it out somehow and hope it's right this time.Plus I'm multi tasking 3 task! So yea that explains the 3 hrs..lol..Seriously I feel really tired n feels like dying,plus my period is KILLING me!!!

I also just finish watching It's you live in inkigayo..Walao!! They all are sooo hot!!Kyakyakya! Especially eunhyuk do the popping.He looks such a badass guy..woot! swoon~heechul with his hair-looks very manly n hot! n not forgetting my eeteuk!! *minhui-you go far far away make my hormones go WILD!! Eeteuk ah..you shouldn't show more skin...you want me to die issit??Make me nosebleed..lol!

2009-05-16T20:53:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was the awkwardness day of my life! I went to Mayfeline bbq pit at east coast to celebrate her birthday.What seems to be the problem was that I never expect her fren's fren would be all malay.I know she can speak malay but I never knew that all her fren that come was all malay.N they doesn't look that 'nice',especially some of the girls..You know what I mean.When they just arrive,I can already feel their eyes on me and they obviously looks surprise.But who am I to judge?I don't know them.So yea..I just feel soo awkward since I'm the odd one. (T.T) I just feel that I shouldn't be there.Shouldn't come like Wanying..

2009-05-09T21:23:00.005+08:00

Celebrating my friend birthday yesterday.I really had sooo much fun.^^

Here some pic I took yesterday.

The cake

The birthday gurl

The friends

2009-05-06T20:46:00.004+08:00

This morning while waiting for CTR lesson to start,my classmate were waiting outside,waiting for the key to open the room.Then while waiting,I stood at one side.This morning I just feel a bit moody?down? I'm not too sure myself.Must be because of the weather.Then suddenly one of my malay friend approached and asked 'eh?dulu you madrasah takder campur2 kan?' then I nod lor..then she asked me this 'then knape you kat sini slalu rapat ngan cina?' WHOAH! Seriously I was taken aback.I don't know what to say sey at that moment.My mind become blank like that.HAHA...Then not to being rude to her I just say that I'm just trying to enjoy and try this new experience-meaning to be friend with the chinese.And then she just nod and get back to her malay clique.I'm telling you this,that is not the real reason.The reason I'm more close to the chinese is because we have things in common so I'm more relax with them.Plus I'm not interested with the malays there.Maybe one of the reason is because of our age gap,and I can't take people being so childish and not matured.HAHA..But that DOESN'T mean I hate them and not talking to them k..So don't misundertand that.^^I do still talk to them sometimes in class,so I'm not outcasting them.But when I think Back right,I feel so bad for her at times.Hmmm..should have talking to her more..^^

Ok,next is the 50 first reaction.You have to type what comes first in your mind.I got tagged from my friend.So no choice got to do it plus I'm bored.^.~

1.Beer: I don't drink

2.Food: I love it

3.Relationship: single for now

4.Your crush: none for now

5.Power ranger: die already right?

6.Life: good n bad

7.The president: which president?

8.Yummy: strawberry shortcake!!

9.Cars: I want one

10.Movies: can't think right now

11.Halloween: I want to to cosplay too

12.Sex: I'm female

13.religion: muslim

14.hate: people who irritate me

15.fear: too many

16.marriage: want it

17.blondes: hate

18.Slippers: simple

19.Shoes: heels

20.asian: myself

21.past time: -

22.one night stand: ......

23.My cellphone: n81

24.Smoke: I hate it

25.Fantasy: fairy tale

26.College: --

27.high school life: miss it

28.Pajamas: night gown

29.Stars: bright

30.Center: huh?

31.alcohol: I don't drink!!

32.the word love: complicated

33.Friends: miss them

34.Money: love it

35.Heartache: last year

36.time: 9.30pm

37.Divorce: i dun want

38.Dogs: cute

39.undies: i wear them

40.parents: still alive

41.babies: ....

42.Ex: 3

43.Song: Girls by se7en

44.Colour: blue

45.Wedding: grand wedding by the sea

46.pizza: craving for it

47.Hangout: no specific place

48.Rest: sleep

49.Goal: trying to achieve it

50.Inspiration: -

2009-05-01T13:14:00.010+08:00

Project is piling up and it got me really stressful.3 project we have to do but we only manage to do one first so far and it's not even complete yet!So lately I've been busy doing research for project for nearly every night and it drains my energy.But anyway,I have to get use to it somehow.Plus,watching suju variety show do help me alot from being tooo stressful.^^

Ok,this is random.My friend told me to post it here.So there you go,my answer to your every questions..^.^

1. Suju member I want to be bestfriend with: Ryeowook

2. Suju member that can be my eating-partner: Shindong

3. Suju member I want to play cosplay with: Heechul

4. Suju member I don't want to mess with: Kangin

5. Suju member that I don't find him ordinary at all despite what other people say: Yesung

6. Suju member that I don't find him 'THAT' innocent after all: Sungmin

7. Suju member that can be my big brother: Siwon

8. Suju member I want to dance with: Eunhyuk

9. Suju member I find him attractive lately: Donghae

10. Suju member I want to learn cook from: Hankyung

11. Suju member I want to take picture with: Ki bum

12. Suju member I always forgot: Kyuhun

13. Suju member gurls should get away from: Leeteuk

Favourite qoute: "we are the lonely souls" (Sungmin,you are just too cute!)

2009-04-27T21:45:00.003+08:00

Everytime in class when the teachers ask for volunteer or he picks for volunteer.He NEVER mention my name.Not that I wanted him sooo much to call my name.I know lah my name is sooo hard to pronounce plus it's very rare.It's just makes me wonder..Does he EVEN know I'm exist??

P/S: Huda,you're not alone...^-^

2009-04-24T23:33:00.005+08:00

It's only been two weeks and here I am already full with 3 projects!!Argh!!! I feel soooo tired but then this is what it's called tertiary studies.So I'll have to get use to it.Thank goodness it's a team work project.If it's only individual work,I tell you,I'm gonna die because of too much stress.haha..Lucky you,Sri,your course is easy..:P plus you get to get back home early..haiz..so jealous of you...daijoubu..it's only for a year.ganbate!!

I know I haven't got much to say here..dat's because nothing much happen lately.Nothing like a guy suddenly fall from the sky(wish I hope it will happen someday) or I saw pigs can fly..Ok ok..I should stop my rubbishes.It's pretty much same ol' sam ol'..Except that I'm getting busy and busier this pass few days.So now after two weeks,I'm already use to wake up earlier and use to the be cramp like an old sardine can in the MRT.

So today,I don't see my 'eyeçandy'.Not that I care much anyway.It's just that my school are soo pathethic.NO hot guys!unlike you, Sri.I'm so envious of you again.Anyway,so far he's the only one I spot which is pleasant to the eyes.huhu..

2009-04-19T20:42:00.007+08:00

Sri's been asking me since last week-"What CCA I'll be taking"-since she's already joining billiard and culinary for her CCA.Truthfully I still haven't decide yet..I'm thinking of taking archery,dance club or some interesting martial art.I really want to join dance club,but if it's malay dance..eerrmm..no thanks.I don't know how to dance so wouldn't it be interesting to learn how to dance??plus dance BURN calories.Not that I have much anyway..But still,it's one way to do fun exercising.^^And archery sounds fun..but the place..errmm..I'll be thinking twice bout that.And martial art??hmm..definitely not joining any silat anymore..Haiz..Still couldn't decide..Oh,don't worry.Tomorrow will be the CCA fair..So I'll find something interesting somehow.^.^

Huda~~kyo ni zutto atsui ne!!!argh!!!stress!!!

Mainichi zutto atsui!Daikira!

What did I do today??Nothing much,just practising NOBODY dance move from idance(but somehow only pass at the beginning only) and learn korean.Korean is just tooo hard for me.Wonder why I did bothered trying.haiz..I've been addicted to this song from suju-Why I like You-And I can't help myself to just sing along.But unfortunately I don't bloody know how to..So I decided to practise and hopefully I can sing very well too..nyahnyah~~I just don't bloody know why my other friend says that korean is easy.For me it's just too hard to pronounce it correctly.I still think Japanese is much more easy than korean.^^

Here let me give you an example:

Oneul achim geudae ajoo malgeum mogsorineum

I find this hard to pronounce it at first.It looks like soo many word to pronounce it but it's actually pretty short.I gueSS I'm too use of japanese.^^ N the correct way to say it is-Onul achim gude ajoo malgum mogsorinum-HAH! MCM GINI KAN LG SENANG! Yea...skrg aku dah bleh nyanyi why i like you!!suke!!!^^

~Current obsession~

Angel leetuek!!!! drrrooollss~!

2009-04-13T21:56:00.005+08:00

It's a first day of school and here I am feeling tired like I've been schooling for a week! And on a first day,I'm late.I know..I know..It's bad to be late on your first day.But THANK GOODNESS I'm not the only one.So phew...Right,I have to go out early.Argh!

So how was school?It's not that bad of what I thought it might be.So it's good.And guess what?Not even one malay approach me first.Haiz..So what did I do?I approach them first and they're like-you malay? OOOOOOkkkkkk...I don't know what to say about that..I guess from today onwards I have to say MORE malay.. :P

So basically What I did today back at school was talking about school rules n blablabla..seriously it's booooorrrrriiinnngggg..then we did the ice breaking session,then we had touring the school..Next,we had to do cheers!Right...cheers,I haven't done dat for AGES~! And wha't's more?we have to perform it on stage infront of the whole other courses students on this wednesday..OOOOO..shhooott!! Here comes the butterfly in my stomach..

I'm gonna be the best this year hopefully.No slacking no more! Ganbate!!

2009-04-01T23:07:00.007+08:00

Friend says I should have forgotten him by now.But everytime I thought I'd already done so,seeing other couples make me remember him again.I hate this part of me.Being a weak person.Everytime I see couples,this thoughts always come to me 'aaaaah..if things work out together between us.Would we be happy like them?Holding each others hand,never to let go.Always smiling and maybe we should wear matching colour top together,like those cheesy couples out there.Looking at each others eyes,to have no care watsoever to the people around us.Those butterfly feelings everytime we meet.' I really want to experience it all with you.Aaaaaah..this wishful thinking,I should have erase it from my heart.Maybe I should have knock my head over the wall so that all the memory we had together will be erase totally.I wouldn't have suffer this much.This is what I thought,but then if I were to erase you in my memory.I wouldn't know that there's a nice person like you out there and I wouldn't experience this heartwarming feelings I had when you were next to me.

2009-03-30T14:53:00.007+08:00

Staying at home alone really bores me.Parents at work-sibling at school and I'm stuck here at home alone with no one but a hamster to spare.I have no one to talk to and all I ever do is just keep the house clean,give my bro's hamster some food,then watch tv for a while.Then I'll come back to zero-with nothing to do.Even if I think going out would be a good idea-I'm too lazy to go out.Most of my friends are at school.So yea,even if they were some of them whose willing to go out,I'd still prefer to stay at home.Too much hassle for me to think what to wear and stuff..HAH!typical women...and also not forgetting the extreeeeme hot weather.Who would ever want to go out in such weather anyway??I'd rather be indoor and sleep all the way.

So what did I do today??Nothing much..as usual,watching WE GOT MARRIED for the second time,listen to Super Junior latest song at imeem and thought of buying the album or not..Hmm..I should check out HMV and see how's the rating first.I thought of buying DBSK album,but it was tooo damn expensive so shouldn't buy for now..Hmm..lately I haven't been to a movie for a while.Thought of going to see japanese movie..anyone interested??Hmm..if there's no one,then I'll watch it alone.It's not my first time any way.

The weather feels sooo hot today and what better way than to indulge yourself with double choc ice cream topped with whipped cream and hershey strawberry syrup.HAHA..you probably thought it would be a coffee or something right???I know I should have put it inside a see-through glass..but wth!I can't find one..^^

2009-03-28T20:55:00.005+08:00

Hello again minna-san~!

Ogenki desuka?

Today I feel slightly tired..For the last seven days I've been sleeping really late.You probably wondering what did I do right??Hmm..lately I've been finishing watching 'we got married'-korean reality show where they pair the artist to act as married couple. It's really funny.And the reason I'm totally hook with the show is because Hyung Joong is on it.hehe..

Aren't they cute together???Eventhough it's just a makebelieve,I wish they're going out for real..Don't mind their age difference..They're like soulmate together..^^

Sigh..looking at those pictures makes me wonder..when will I be able to wear such a gorgeous dress..WAH~! I want one too!!

You know what?This days,I just can't get enough of korean variety show.I watched super junior E.H.B show,then next come dbsk,then there's kat-tun-japanese variety show..It really got me addictive.They are just sooo damn funny.Haiz...I'm living my life now..

2009-03-19T00:31:00.005+08:00

Some picture I took with my JBS friend today.I am soo tired right now but still drag myself to post it,or else I'm gonna postpone it till tomorrow and I can't promise myself for doing it.^^

2009-03-17T20:16:00.005+08:00

Today I just bought a paranormal romance book-Safe Harbour by Christine Feehan.It's a trilogy book and I've read the 3rd book and has been searching the other 3.But I've been searching since last week and never find one.And when I checked at the library,most of it has been on loan.So it's kinda frustrating to wait until you find one,and so I decided to buy it.The thing about this trilogy,you don't need to read in order.So that's a good thing..^^

Starting from tomorrow,my house wil be damn quiet..NAZE?(why) First of all,my 2nd bro going to camp with his classmate for 3 days.Then my 3rd and 4th bro sleepover at my cousins place for 3 days.And so the next three days I have my own quiet time of my own.^^ weee~~I don't have to wake early in the morning to make breakfast for my 3 lil devil..huhu..Plus I can have the comp all by myself! ureshi kara~~!

Right,I don't know what to blog anymore.Hmm..let see..How bout this..I'm gonna post 10 things that nobody knows about me-not even my own friend.It's gonna be interesting NE~~..^^

HIkuzo~~!

1. I hate girls who are pretty when they know it.Hm..don't get it?anone~~some of them knows that they are pretty,they tend to act stuck up..Get it??

2. When my period come,I tend to be very S-L-O-W and B-L-U-R like sotong..I can't even decide between yes and no.There's one time when I drop at the wrong stop when I went to my cousin house.Eventhough I've been there for quite sometime already.Hazukashi~~!

3. Even though I like the moon and the stars,I'm a afraid of darkness..haha..

4. People may not notice this,but I'm a very jealous person when someone stole my friend.

5. I'm quiet and a shy girl when people get to know me the first time.But I can really talk to stranger like we've been friends all our lives.Especially when the strangers being friendly..

6. I hate blond girl!! I don't why myself,but I hate it!! OK,maybe the sterotype of blond being dumb,just like a bimbo.HAHA..

7. I never miss,even ONE episode of AMERICAN NEXT TOP MODEL.

8. I have a weakness for feminine guy.But of course he's not gay ok..It's like he looks feminine on the outside but actually a very strong person.You get what I mean.

9. I like to wear matching undergarment.

10. I had a crush on MJ when I was 7 yr old.

There,I've post it all.Now you already know some of my secret.So,for being fair,I want you.YES,YOU! who read this to post 10 things that I may not know about you.So you better post it now,or else BAD LUCK will overtake your life.AND I'M SERIOUS,OK.MUAHAHAHA...

2009-03-13T22:55:00.004+08:00

LOVEJUICE　/　赤西仁　　　　

Don't know where you're from
Never seen you around
But that don't mean nothing to me
Just want a taste of that...

Drop that shit life...

She stood there waiting alone
Green eyes her shoulder exposed
Smiling and biting her straw
She gave me one look, I froze

Her sexy inviting eyes
My hands on her hips as we grind
She whispered in an accent unknown
"Just let go, let the music take control babe
Move your body, nothing crazy
So take it slow, there's so many things I want you to know
I ain't leaving you, cuz I'm yours tonight"

I can tell you want me too
And every time I think of you
That luscious juice your lips produce
I can taste that sweet LOVEJUICE

“Oh”, “Oh”, “More”, “Slow”

Classy like none of these hoes
Pretty little frame under her clothes
Those lips as red as a rose
Vibing to the beat from the Boze

Don't rush the night is still young
Take it to the room and sex things up
I can see you call out my name, saying“Don't stop, more”
I'm trying to see how your lips feel babe
All we need is body language
And now I know, I'm falling for you and I just can't lie
I won't go no where cuz I'm your man tonight

See, I've been all around the world but I ain't (seen nothingX2)
Like you, don't matter where you're from, it don't (mean nothingX2)
See, I've been all around the world but I ain't (seen nothingX2)
And now I got four minutes to take you back, girl we can (be somethingX2)

Ok lately I'm sooo into this song...OH yea..drop that shit life~! Akanishi jin voice are sooo damn sexy~!kyakyakyah~!But still kamenashi I like best..^^

2009-03-13T22:43:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow I'll be going to my cousin's wedding at Johor.Staying for one night and I still haven't pack a single thing! It's going to be boring for the next whole trip..WHY?coz Nurul doesn't come along.sigh~~But thank goodness I just bought CLEO,so I'm gonna bring it tomorrow.^^

2009-03-03T20:31:00.005+08:00

OK,my whole body is aching,sometimes I feel like vomiting and my head feels dizzy,at some point I could have collapse anytime.It's been like a week already and I don't know what to do.Sometimes,during the day,I'm feeling all right and the next minute the pain comes back.No people,I'm NOT pregnant if that's what you think.So probably it's because of climate changing..You know,lately the weather can be sooo hot like the sahara dessert and the next it feels really cold like snow.I HATE CLIMATE CHANGING!! THE EARTH IS SICK! PEOPLE,WE NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!

Ok,forget about that.If I were bound to get sick,it's going to be a matter of time.So prepare myself! So,today I went to ITE Clementi campus for registration and to buy the uniform.This time I went with my parents and not forgetting Sri.(coz I need to accompany her later)AND surprisingly,most of the girls are going to wear skirt.So it will be high chance that I'm going to be the ONLY one whose going to wear pants.SHEESH! Oh,never mind.Besides,why would I want to wear skirt?(IF i can)I can't run in it.My skirt will be torn.HAHA..Believe me,I have tw0 skirt at home and it's torn.And I don't mean long skirt ok..I don't know what I did with it but it just did.^^

2009-02-09T12:16:00.003+08:00

I have good news! I finally been accepted in ite for tourism course.The course which interest me most.Personally,ite does not cross my mind and I can't even imagined me being there.However,due to some financial circumstances,I somehow did not have any other choices.And to think I could get tourism for my first choice is unbelievable!What's more,the course is well-known to be overly popular thus I've heard not many of them are taken.Only selected ones.And to think,I'm one of the selected ones,I started to think I got really lucky!^^ huhu..tak sia2 aku retake O lvl lg..

No matter how much I thought I was being lucky,I do know that in this world..nothing is coincidence or 'lucky'.Everything is predestined.Everything happens for a reason-right? People say, 'Do not let other stop you from chasing your dreams'. The words sound so simple to understand but somehow hard to face it.So does that mean I'll have to walk through 'hell' before reaching my goal??

Oh well,I think I already started going through now..What's with my aunt and other relatives(my mom sides)surprised by my choices.I know they did not expect for what I have become.But I personally hope that they respect my choices and believe me that by taking this choices does not make me a bad person.Everyone have their own different kind of dreams and goal.Just because I'm different from the rest of 'them',they could treat me differently..Of course,they don't..but my aunt sometimes did.I can't be bothered by her anyway..so I just ignore it.

2009-02-06T22:39:00.002+08:00

I am SOOOOOOO FUCKING WORRIED...coz my computer seems like it's going to die anytime soon..and SOOOOO FUCKING ANGRY at my dad coz he won't BLOODY HELP...and SOOOOOOO FUCKING ANGRY at my 2nd bro for not helping either...and SOOOOOO FUCKING MAD at myself for being helpless!!

p/s:Plz excuse my language this time..I feel soooo mad right now and feels like saying the F-WORDS...

2009-02-03T12:04:00.005+08:00

We're friends.You and I.It's where it all started.People say it's impossible to be just friend between man and woman.I'd never believe it.I thought it's all bullshit.Our friendship is pure-i believe it then.We played games together,tease each other,telling jokes.We are like bestfriends.

I dream of how we first became friend.Starting with a simple hello from you.Then one day he left me,and I became really sad.So I'd followed him.

Ok,this part is getting ridiculous.But bear with me for abit. ^^

I'd found out that he's trying to get to this one hunted mansion,trying to solve the 'mystery' behind it-I assumed.But unexpectedly,I'd get there first and saw everything,plus the secret.Quickly I ran out.Next thing I knew,I'd bumped into him. He looks really surprised.For a minute there,I thought he's going to get angry with me.But soon as he calm himself down,he asked me about everything.

What did you come here for?-he asked

And when I was about to tell him,came this one devil child,threatening me if I were to tell him their secret.For I shall be dead if the secrets were out. One thing I knew,he can't see the devil child.So I told him..

Believe me..I'd really wanted to tell you.But it's complicated

And the next thing I knew I'd dissapeared and was trapped in that haunted mansion.

Next scene....

I'd remember I was the 2nd wive to this one middle age man.It was sooooooo scary..It's disgusting!When I'd found out he's goin to marry another one.That makes it 3 in total.I'd cried and begged him to divorce me.Sheesh!What kind of dreams did I end up to??and he did divorce me.

This my friend,is what happened when you don't wash your feet before going to sleep.^^

p/s:DJAH!! NI ANGKARA KO sebab ko kasi aku baca buku tu!! dah aku mimpi bukan2..Aku rasa punca segala misteri tu terletak pada bunga ungu karmila itu sendiri ,bukan??(blum abis baca lagi buku tu..)

2009-01-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

Ok,aku tau aku dah lama tak post.Sorry bout that coz 1. aku memang takder cerita nak di-postkan. 2. dari hari sabtu aku camp pat east coast with my family.^^

And for once,aku camp kat sana aku tak mandi laut...sebab aku takder kwn.Cousin aku Nurul dtg tapi tak tido coz she got lots of project she need to do.So,aku ngan kakak dier je.Boring kan??Sikit perempuan je.Bosan betul..So ape lg aku pun hang out ngan abg sedara aku ngan kawan dier sorang.Tgk diorang pancing sampai 5 pagi.Wah~penat betul but it was fun!^^ Dapat 4 ikan ngan octopus.Cool~!Ni lah orang tk pernah pancing..ghairah giler..haha..

I guess this is for now..short,simple and sembarang je aku cerita.Aku nak sambung alek tido.Nite!